I Miss My Body
I miss my strong body. I miss my intense workouts to the point of almost puking. I miss my long runs with my girlfriends. I miss the feeling I get when after one of those workouts. I miss juice and no carb cleanses. I miss looking in the mirror and seeing my defined shoulders and abs I worked so hard for. I miss this little extra lift in my ass I get when I focus on leg workouts.
I can't believe the summer is here and I am going to have to put a bathing suit on. Not of my bathing suits fit! I don't want to buy new one. I want to confidently wear my bikini and not feel fat.
But, this is where I am. I am on my fertility journey and due to three years counting, I decided to really look at my lifestyle and see where I can make changes that will benefit my fertility. Plus, try to stop focusing on other women who are doing CrossFit in their third trimester. Since the beginning of this year, I have really cut back on my workouts to the point of walking and fertility yoga. I do lift weights, but I make sure I am not overheating.
Will this be the change I needed? I'm unsure. But, this was a big piece of my daily routine and there has been a huge about of research regarding intense training and fertility. Although my arms don't look as good, my butt and thighs are a bit bigger, and I know this is not going to be my best summer body, I am willing to create a softer, feminine, Goddess approach to my fertility.
So cheers to embracing my curves, my womb, my spirit baby, my fertility!!!